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[Sep. 16th, 2005|09:01 pm] |
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| | pink floyd my personal mix (piano) | ] |
I know this entry is gonna be mega lame but i need to write tis
I need someone to talk to. I need a friend. I dont have any friends that i can speak my mind with anymore. They're all gone. Its okay but i just realized today in algebra 2 that life got really bad for me over this past summer, the worst its ever been, and its funny that at that point the peopel who i once thought were close to me and once i could talk to for hours sharing thoughts and expressing what crazy teenage turbulence was inside of us. Because i figured maybe he'd have something to say that relates to my problems. I figured maybe he could tell me that thats fine and everyone goes through that. But I dont have that anymore.
I flipped my truck into a river on top of all of it,
I am closer to god then i ever have been.
My life flashed before my eyes and i couldve swore i was ready to die, then when it happened i survived somehow.
I FLIPPED MY TRUCK OVER WITH TWO OTHER PEOPLE IN IT UPSIDE DOWN INTO A RIVER. NONE OF US WERE WEARING SEATBELTS TEH ROOF CAVED IN TO THE STEERING WHEEL YET WE ALL GOT OUT WITHOUT A SCRATCH.
tell me what up with that. I could tallk for hours about how god saved me and ryan and ATk.
for the love of it all i could tell you and exchanged thoughts about god and how much hes changed me and how much threw these things ive seen him. and how he is more real then many ever know.
I was spared my life. But it wasnt the first time.
For all thats good i just need someone to talk to
help me.
Theres feelings inside me that ive never felt b4 and its the scariest thing yet teh most powerful ever.
I have dreams where all i hear is metal crunching like a fucking tin can and i cant see anything because im blind but its just this terrible crushing noise and people are screaming, not even pausing for a breath just fucking screaming.
I havnt had a drink since the accident only because all my booze was in my truck.
I have gone threw night remebering that special ZING the alcohol had on my lips and i want it so bad. I havnt been trashed in exactly 1 month two days ago
I have this increadable craving to get stoned out of my mind.
I want to do all these things that are bad and i dont know why.
I want to get this huge tatoo of a cross on my entire back and just show god just how much i need him and am depended on him. I wanna know why he saved me, i wanna know why im still alive. I wonder always what hes saving me for.
I miss the feeling of uncertenty. I fucking miss that the most.
i need a friend. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 22nd, 2005|08:50 am] |
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| |  vagina | ] |
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| | AMERICA FUCK YEAH | ] |
dude everyone has myspaces
haha!
uhh, i should get one
uhh
liq b4 beer your in the clear
Oh yeah i just wanted to throw this out there, and you can take it and throw it right back but uhh, I want to be on you, uhh, I, I want to be on you! ...... I want to be on you!
Independece day is just a huge ass america rules movie. I watched it and was like? fuck yeah. Then i watch my history video and i was like, America, Fuck yeah.
thats all i got |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 1st, 2005|04:21 pm] |
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| |  camaro prik | ] |
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| | floyd (by default) | ] |
uhhh man
i dont feel very good about my camaro.
Me and my dad argued about it for awhile today then we totalled up the build for it.
the rear chassis will cost 2300
the body panels for it will cost 2000
ad in some variables and round up to 5k to get teh car off the chassis jig.
Wow, my dad heard that and flipped out.
Now he then figured 15k more into the motor tranny and body and paint and then he said lets just buy a car done for that much
I said okay.
ah shit i really wanna hot rod it cuz it would be so flippin nice when i get done with it, but i really want it done for high school,. and this car aint gonna cut it.
So fuck me.
what to do?
Oh yeah BTW pink floyd getting together for teh first time in liek 28 years
yes Rodger waters and Gilmore will be on the same stage.
Holy shit |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 29th, 2005|11:48 pm] |
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| |  ahhh!!! no more yum | ] |
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| | Pink floyd ~ Nobody Home | ] |
i filled up today, uhhh i love my truck. I think my gas milage accually whent down after putting the cap back on so thats coming off. Yeah i had 323 on the clock and i got 18.5 gallons. Thats 17.5 miles per gallon. Thats all city driving too. Not bad for such an extreamly powerful truck (haha big JK)
I watched the wall again today for liek the 50th time
and my favorite time of day is the night time cuz its all just about me and trying as hard as i can to turn offf the damn lights wha'll im cocked off my mind.
I've got the inevitable pin hole burns. Got a grand piano to prop up my mortal remains. I've got wild staring eyes, and i've got a strong urge to fly, but ive got no where to fly to.
Theres nobody home
I wish i could say this summers better then last but, in some cases its not.
Ahhh shit what are you gonna do, I know
"fuck shit niggers"
problem solved!??
Yay |
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| OMFG SUMMER I LOVE GIRLS WHO LOVE AUTOMOBILES |
[Jun. 27th, 2005|10:28 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | gotta shit | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I have to call autoweld chassis | ] |
So the doors almost finished. Its very smooth now, cause the shit is bananas? YEAH.
I've never done a burnout at 90 mph, but sunday changed that. Thanks to a Big block 55 chevy pickup with 4 on the floor. I think i diharreaed in my pants. It was incread.
Summers too dull so far. wheres the beef?
Friday night was sick, i belive, i really cant remeber. It was very very crazy. I called a bunch of kids, but i remeber calling adam and was liek
"Unique Unork, ahhh fuck hold on ill get it, unique unork, god damnit one more, unique unork, hey i think i got it on that one!"
Yeah i was gone
Zack is a wicked crazy name BTW
HAHAHA only adam gets it.
im wearing the volcom shirt, ha you know it. |
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| beeh |
[Jun. 21st, 2005|10:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | go | ] |
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| | FLOYD | ] |
So derek hit the monte when it was parked and smashed the door in perdy good so gordon got a newer door from the junk yard. I've been doing the bodywork on it and its pretty rough on some spots. I sanded it donw with 80 then stepped it up to 320 and then i put filler on the low spots and rusty holes, theres many holes in it, so naturally, i mixed allot of filler. The door is increadibly strait now. Im gonna sand the filler i put on today down tommorow, then put a little more down then prime her up.
if it comes out nice i want 50 dollars, thats a fuck shitter of a deal. And so far, its the balls, the fucking balls.
I need to shower i look like poopy
Hi Rory, who said i had no customers>!?!??!
HAHAHA JK MAYBS
you missed an excellent 4 square game BTW |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|05:20 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | pink floyd ~ welcome to the machine. | ] |
I have a flippin soar throat whats up with that!?!?!
Class elections were today, def came in second to malcom, but i did good, there were allot of people running so i feel good about how i did. Yeah i made the speach with my soar throat and all, and before i did it i whent up to the mic and said "How now brow cow, How now brow cow, unique new york" hahaha it was fun.
God i've been so busy latley, it seems im always doing somthing. Two nights ago i got no sleep and then had my math midterm to do, then i took a nap, and it was good. But i got woken up when an ant bit my stomach. That really hurt. flippin ants.
I need to go to welch's welding bad, i gotta get some 2x4x.120 frame rails for the camaro.
Me and Georgine are not doing very good either... |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 31st, 2005|08:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Chill | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pink floyd - Echoes | ] |
today was sick, i whent to work after school and almsot finished sandin the Cobra down, flippin sweet.
Thats to me, taht cobra kicks ass. Im priming it tommorow.
Then i got metal with my dad and im wicked exited. Yeah, i like the feel of steel.
heh, okay ill stop
Jammed with gordon today, then his mom said it was his bed time ha ha aha gordon. we got some sick beats
Then i entered this entry. SWEET.
now im gonna go buy more camaro stuff. |
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| Camaro |
[May. 30th, 2005|07:13 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Pigs (three different ones) PINK FLOYD | ] |
So i returned my ladder bars in exchange for an Art Morssison triangulated four bar rear suspention with coil overs and a sway bar. Okay for those who dont get it, its basically my favorite animal, its a combination lion tiger, its a lyger and its sickkk.
Yeah get the facts at www.artmorrison.com
Oooo i got my hair molested, i mean cut. It looks like a gay.
I totally decked out my sand blaster today... SICK
I dunno, peace. |
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[May. 22nd, 2005|11:04 am] |
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| | pink floyd 4 shure | ] |
I gotta update |
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| Call Joey, Westford (cell) 978-846-3502 |
[May. 16th, 2005|08:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lick my MIG tip | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Echoes" by Pink Floyd on the "meddle" vynil in my room | ] |
Since my last update!!!!!
Well I got rear ended about a month ago, although it seems much longer. It accually happened on me and georgines 5 month. Kinder weird. well i was hit from behind by a big ford F350, its a very large truck. And my little dakota got hit good. well It got totalled but i got to keep it cuz it was a third party total. Sweet. Well yeah i did some welding and made it halfway decent, repainted it and its ok now. Yeah when your driving, pay attention to what the hells infront of you. jesus. well its accually all good cuz in the end it helped me allot, hahahaha thank ya.
So after this accident i whent over to phase two auto body and talked to my dads buddy Jim Beckwith, who owns phase two. long story short, im working saturdays there now. Jim may also have me work at his house on his cars. FLIPPIN SWEET.
Me and georgine have been going out for a half a year now. It realy seems like i've known her forever tho. I surprised her wicked on saturday, okay heres what i did. (and i always do shit liek this cuz its so much fun)
Okay- i drove down her road with my lights off totally stelth in teh dark and rolled up got out of teh window so teh cab light wouldnt come on and i put the nice ring i got her in her mail box and rolled the dakota back out of sight then i hid in teh woods, called he and told her to check her mail. when she came out she got teh box opened it and started screaming then i ran out of the woods. It was so sick.
The Camaro.
I jsut spent $320 on my adjustable ladderbars. they will be increadable. I did allot of work sandblasting, preping and priming the body. I'll ahve the floors in once i mock up the ladderbars on some tubing that butch supplied for now. It will be nice
My confermation was yesterday. It whent very well. I dont feel any different physically but mentally i feel like i just proclaimed my religion to everyone. Im proud. Ya its a sacrament so its a big deal. I really geel closer to God.
Tim and Butch came, although tims cell rang half threw and he had to go to nagog on call. I was pretty bummed. Georgines family came, they have really done allot for me and im glad they came.
Kay fellers, MCAS tommorow. What a joke, really its so rediculusly easy, everyones so afraid there gonna fail. PFFt, we'll do great, now get to bed tools. |
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| what a woot |
[May. 8th, 2005|09:18 pm] |
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| | the wall? | ] |
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| | mabys the wall??? | ] |
id update , but im gonna go listen to the wall on vynil
I SENTENCE YOU TO BE EXPOSED BEFORE YOUR PEERS!!
TEAR DOWN THE WALL!TEAR DOWN THE WALL!TEAR DOWN THE WALL!TEAR DOWN THE WALL!TEAR DOWN THE WALL!TEAR DOWN THE WALL!TEAR DOWN THE WALL!TEAR DOWN THE WALL!TEAR DOWN THE WALL!
i got a new job at phase two auto body
and ive been workin gon my camaro allot
and georgines bday is tommorow! |
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| gotta update this stuff |
[Apr. 25th, 2005|07:09 pm] |
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| | pink floyd - Dark side of the moon | ] |
yeah i need to update, but i gotta do a bio lab! so ill do it later, allot happened BTW. ahaha chill peace |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 7th, 2005|08:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | i want my new truck | ] |
| [ | music |
| | pink floyd | ] |
Im so pumped to get my new truck.
LIKE NIGGERS
uh i dunno what else to say!
I just really want that truck now, i need to weld. i cant wait that trucks gonna be sick.
Fliipin UHHHHH
TICKING AWAY THE MOMENTS THAT MAKE UP A DULL DAY
FRITTER AND WASTE THE HOURS IN AN OFFHAND WAY
KICKING AROUND ON A PEICE OF GROUND IN YOUR HOME TOWN
WIATING FOR SOMEONE OR SOMTHING TO SHOW YOU THE WAY |
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| Mr Bowtie |
[Apr. 5th, 2005|08:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | TRUCKZ | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Black Label Society - House of Doom | ] |
YAr,
so i've been going to work everyday after school and put in a few hours for 2 weeks now. My body needs recovery time! Moneys great
Gas prices are soring, up ten cents a gallon for special. Its $2.27 a gallon now. What is up. A big blocks gonna suck but its all good. Thats why im pairing it to a TH-700R4- overdrive!
I got a sick shirt yesterday. I hung out with Corey, Adam and Justin today and Justin shot me with a fully automatic airsoft gun. He unloaded on me. It felt good.i got two nice bullet wounds, its sick.
NAGOG TRUCKS UPDATE::::::::
The sander has a 400,
The rack truck has a 460.
Tim said the blue truck was very nice and the best of all the fords there.
He also gave me his yellow truck today!!!!
1978 Chevy C10
Hot fudge!
Peace |
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| oatmeal |
[Mar. 31st, 2005|07:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | DIT IT | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Black Lable Society - Suicide Messiah | ] |
OMG!
So, uh, cant weld saturday. Uncle Sam said its gonna rain. POOP. alright alright
I drove Jess and Georgine to drivers ed today. Good stuff, we listend to nigger music, gotta love fiddy.
UH
got a nice big paycheck today so imma gonna order my ladderbars for my death rocket i mean camaro
I have this huge history thing, POOP
okay i gotta do it now
PEACE
JOEY |
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| Racist |
[Mar. 29th, 2005|09:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | HAHAHA | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 50 CENT CANDY SHOP !!NIGGERS!!NIGGERS | ] |
We are welding angelas Blazer saturday
I cant wait to fuck that rust up. UHHH Welding is so sick.
Then tom and I are sleeping over, mabey if gordon will allow it, Georgine can sleep over! HHAHHAHHAHA.
SICK
DUDe,
Im such a racist, like i say "nigger" allot
what ever
okay now im really done
KAY
BYEZ |
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| P-rill, where my niggas at? |
[Mar. 29th, 2005|08:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  AHHAHHDH | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Black Sabboth - paranoid | ] |
Okay, today i whent to school.
Followed that shortly with some work at NWCC till 4 today thank the gods of cereal. I whent over to Georgines after and hung out, we played !!UNO!! which i am very good at with her sister natalie. I own at !!UNO!! I must say. ERRR what else!, Her dad made some nice pork for dinner and i proceeded to consume much of it.
I want to go work on my car untill the wee hours of the morning. Uh i cant wait to get it going
I've changed plans on it. making it a more viscious and fast car but with a pro touring edge. It will rape large african american males. or in car terms what we like to call, just about anything.
Im putting a 427 Big block in it, becauseas far as im consered thats all a camaro should have, at le3ast and old one.
What else
I welded Gordons mustang, It was fun. Got some niiice burns but i like it when it hurts ;)
HMMM
Georgine's doing drivers ed now!! shell be on the road soon kiddies.
Okay thats all
Peace out my homies
Joe out |
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| garbage |
[Mar. 28th, 2005|07:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | BLARSH! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | pink floyd ~ Brick part 1 | ] |
So today after school I went into the NWCC and worked till 530. i like makin money. but I got wicked soaked and these hindu people wouldnt stop looking at me. I wanted to step on there heads till i got brains all over my boots. But i was too tired. So yeah i had to un-flood this basement. MM fun.
Easter was great. I when over to Georgines Uncle's and it was sick. It was a great easter, i really like her family. Her Uncle Bill and I talked for like an hour because he owns an autobody and we just shot the shit for awhile it was great. Yeah Me and G had a wicked time Easter, it was great.
Almost time to get rolling on the Camaro again. cait wait. Im really gettin exited. yeah nothing new i guess.
Me and G are doing wicked good, we've been going out for just about 5 months now. Lifes never been better. thanks G.
I finally have money again sice i bought the truck!
I got a huge paycheck from work and its like UUUHHHHGGOOOOOOOOOODDDDD orgasum
now i can buy shit.
Peace
JOE OUT
yarrr |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 11th, 2005|06:49 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pink Floyd - Wish You Were Here ( 8 track ) | ] |
I don't think I'll ever understand how people can pass judgment in such a manner.
I'm always the one at fault apparently. That's why I used to be a quiet kid. I learned that young, i guess. I'm always gonna be the one who gets the blame. Its just the way things happend, and Its depressing as hell. Ever since I was little, I never stood up for anything, I was an observer. so what. Why is mike and gordon assuming all these things about georgine? God that really pisses me off, but again, im not gonna do anything about it. Im at fault here right? Im getting very sick of it. I was very angry at mike a short while ago because he thought me and Georgine had no structure other then sex. After my last post he seemed to understand what our relationship is really like. They have jumped to conclutions very quickly, then harrassed me for things That wernt even happening and I wasnt ever doing. God that really aggrivates me.
So mike finally finds out I was mad at him for saying Georgines a bad thing. Because again, I never stand up for myself, nor do I speak up for what im really thinking, at least not around them. And hes not very happy about the way he made me felt, when in fact what he was saying was an insult to me, telling me everything I was doing was wrong, when i was never doing anything to begin with.
"Don't Forget condoms!"
Wow.
Remember, I'm the one being an asshole here.
i don't know why Im being told im doing everything wrong. You dont even know waht im doing. Please just dont pass judgment on me and especially her unless you know first hand what its like. Would'nt it be nice, If i could have them be invisable during one of my visits. Then i think they'd owe me an apoligy for being so hateful towards me and her. Shes not a bad person, did you ever consider that?
I understand that you looking out for me, but when i try to tell you my side it seems pointless.
Thats why im gonna let it all roll by, i did listen to you, and I'll admit I got a little off track. I was overwhelmed at first. But now, I've got this. But you still pound me for offences I'm not commiting. I guess your keeping me in line, but mabey this level isnt neccisary.
So Im either just going to ignore you or you should tell me somthing thats good for me.
Im probly gonna make people mad with this entry,
Again;
That's what I get for speaking my mind...
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